When basking in the wonders of volcanoes, rainforests, and oceans, I can focus on something other than cancer for a while.
When heading to a cancer center for brain and body scans, not so much.
Still, facing the possibility of progression is easier when I’ve been immersed in nature for a few days. I suspect most cancer patients might benefit from a “nature break” to combat scanxiety before a scan.
The night before we left for our Hawaiian vacation, I had developed a stuffy nose and sore throat, and slept only three hours because I couldn’t breathe through my CPAP. On the plane, I went through an entire pack of Kleenex. In the Kapaa condo, I collapsed at 8 PM with a fever, but awoke at 1:30 AM with screaming sinuses. To avoid waking hubby, I hung out in the darkened bathroom playing Whirlyword on my phone with tissue stuffed up my nose for two hours. I finally got back to sleep around 3:30 AM.
This morning, I awoke to guava juice, sunshine, tropical breezes, a balcony overlooking a lovely garden, and the crow of Kauai roosters. If I’ve got to be sick, this is the sickroom I want!
Today was a Kauai afternoon with 3 generations of family, good Hawaiian food, whales breaching offshore, the sound of crashing waves below, and a stellar sunset. I just sat in a corner of the lanai and soaked it all in while life happened all around me.
I am sated. Sometimes it’s enough to just BE.
Thanks to Steve and Gerry for crowdsourcing the blog title